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So far I am just experiencing with the writer in me and the stories, but I found there is actually a poetry section. Who knew?

I will be taking a summer break, be back in September.

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A Girl’s Story

She knows without a doubt
he can write
pick up the shattered pieces
of her heart
leave it in mid-flight
as all the parts of herself
others love
she hates.
Then her mirror reflects
her various misplaced fates.
Heavy snow
bears upon her
tree lights
dismiss her dreams.
Her head is messed up
the way he cradles her in bed
she continues to sing
nursery rhymes
no one is too old to hear
she has an audience for her worded tears
as Christmas nears.
At Indigo, she waited for the gift-wrapping

moka avec caramel salé?
Non, merci.
Carte spéciale?
Non merci.

Caffe latte and Ryan Adams
at the cash.
Should she give Starbucks more money than 10.00 for 2 coffees?
Should she? Shouldn’t she questions
damned on a a one way street.
Thinks about him removing her clothes
when ugly sweater parties await,
but in the middle of it all
right after her midnight date
and all the alcohol takes flight
she breaks all her promises
gives sin her best shot.
She wants a broken heart
no matter how jolly happy souls part.
Staring at her eggnog
she imagined tolls
midnight strolls
and there she is on the screen
with a book in her hands
naked on his bed
while his eyes
travel all along her legs.

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Your version

I think your version is my favorite love poem I’ve read. I think you captured the moment far better than I ever could. I let my tears show me the way, but then the song Take Me To Church plays and I get trapped in my mind. I want to give you all of me on a silver tray and ask you to be gentle and tear away at me. I think you are a true gent from a time long gone and a lost generation. It’s not in the way you held my jacket, or the way your eyes slid up and down my body, but the way you held it in that drew me in. I can’t do justice to any of it through a poem, or a story, but I will try. I think that attraction exists to pour out the demons to one another; the dark, the light, the in-between blurry parts. I could be playful, silly, spontaneous, strong, and

you may think you have me pegged me, and that’s when

you haven’t

but it’s weird how every day I wake up and I could feel differently, except not really for you.

I sleep and wake to you.

I turn the sheets inside out for you.

I think you can meet me half/way or all/the/way or no/way; I think you have me confused with someone else, someone who you’ve met, but mostly I think you’re just as shocked as I am that we are actually kind of normal in a place where that rarely exists.

Alexios & Elysia #18

18.

“He fell for it, alright,” Tommy said grinning like a spoiled brat who always gets what he want. It irked me.

“I guess so,” I muttered.

“Did you make lover-boy upset? Too fuckin’ bad. I don’t even understand how a smart, beautiful girl like you, could fall for a blood-sucker?”

“Listen, Tommy, just fuck off!” I shouted. “Take me home.”

“No, the night is much too young,” he gave me a quick glance, while fumbling for music, “plus, he’s following us.”

“But I made a renez-vous for tomorrow.”

“It doesn’t really matter.” His eyes were on the rear-view mirror, giving up on his music.

“Yes, it does. It does to me.”

“You have to come to my place. That’ll make him angry!” he smirked.

“That wasn’t the plan.” I said pissed off.

“Plans change.” His expression was blank. He was cold as ice, fuming. “I want to kiss him tonight!”

I felt uneasy, uncomfortable in this plan. I didn’t want Alexios dead…my thoughts kept on changing on me.

“I don’t care if you still have feelings for that dead fuck.”

“Stop reading my mind!” I screamed at him.

“Okay, okay, calm down.”

“No, you calm down.” I repeated.

He blasted the music like an angry teenager. It was some stupid dance song on the radio. After a minute, he shut off the music and turned to me.

“Ellie, do you want him to kill more woman?”

“No, of course not.”

“You know killing is what he does best. He is a killer.”

“So are you.” I said.

“I’m a vampire killer. That’s completely different. I don’t kill innocent people, especially women.”

“This is so fucked up.”

He slowed down the car and parked at the side of the road. He shifted his body toward me. The street was vacant, no cars in front or behind. I figured he probably lost Alexios or something.

“Listen, Ellie, I don’t want you to get hurt,” Tommy looked into my eyes and then he rubbed his head s if he had a headache. I studied him closely. His blue eyes flickered on me. “You are so difficult. You are truly stubborn, and I think that is what I like most about you.” He leaned in toward me. I didn’t move, waiting to hear what he was going to say next. “When all this is over, I want to take you on a real date.”

“Are you seriously coming onto me?”

“Yes,” he whispered and placed his hand in my hair. “Yes, I am. I’ve never met anybody like you.” I felt electricity storm through me. I liked the way his hand was caressing my hair. “You make me so angry one minute and the next minute I want to kiss you. I want to kiss you like you’ve never been kissed before.”

I looked at his lips beckoning me and his voice tingling through my body. I felt the exact same way, but I didn’t want to admit it.

“I want to kiss you right now,” he said and looked at my lips, gently caressing the side of my cheek and slowly moving his fingertips over my mouth. I was melting at his touch, entrapped by his magnetic blue eyes. I didn’t pull back. I waited. He took his other hand and stroked my other cheek, pulling me closer to him. “So can I?” he mumbled.

“Stop talking,” I managed to say and with one slow movement his mouth was on mine and his hands were in my hair, holding my head tightly. I felt the urgency in his kiss and reciprocated my need. He pulled me closer to him, but the gear shift got in the way and I instinctively jumped over it and landed on top of him in the driver’s seat. His hands grabbed my ass and pulled up my dress. I felt my insides exploding and then I heard a crash from the back of the car. I bolted upright. Tommy looked behind me and said, “Alexios is here, just as I thought he would be.”

Alexios & Elysia #17

 

17.

As soon as Tommy and I sat down to watch the ballet, I felt that someone was watching me.

“I think Alexios is here,” I said nervously.

“I know. I already saw him,” Tommy whispered in my ear. “Show time.”

“Where is he?” I asked. Tommy ignored my question and came closer to me and kissed me. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. It was quite a sensual kiss; I felt a tingling all through my body and I definitely wasn’t pretending. He pulled away and placed his hand on my shoulder. His blue eyes warmed to mine. I lost myself for a few seconds.

“I’m sure he’s flipping,” Tommy said, cool as a cucumber.

“Do you…know where he’s sitting?”

“Don’t turn your head when I tell you. To the right, on the balcony, third row, middle section. Don’t look at him.”

“Okay,” I mumbled a little frazzled from the kiss.

“At intermission, you will go to the washroom…I’m sure he’ll be there.” He rubbed my arms up and down. “By the way, Ellie, I love the way you look in a dress.” He locked eyes with mine.

“Thank you.”

“The show will start any second. One more kiss, okay?” he spoke in my ear and his breath so close to my skin made me slightly weak. Luckily, I was sitting. I turned toward him and pulled him close and kissed him first, taking him a bit by surprise. Then I felt it, his tongue, his sweet, delicious tongue met mine. I heard a man next to me clear his throat and I pulled back.

“Sorry,” I said.

“Sorry for what? Don’t be sorry for that!” Tommy gave my neighbor a dirty look and said a little too loudly, “Sour puss.”

The lights went out and I retained a giggle. The lights went out and the music and curtains opened. It was magical. Tommy held my hand and caressed my knuckles in a way that made me lose my concentration.

“How do you like the ballet, Ellie?” he whispered ever so quietly in my ear.

“I like it very much,” I replied. I especially liked his breath on my ear.

Tommy touched the top of my knee, “I knew you would,” and smirked. “I can’t seem to keep my hands off of you…”

I didn’t look at him or reply. I kept my eyes on the stage. By the time I knew it, the lights went on and I quickly stood up.

“I’ll be back, sweetie,” I said acting like a loving girlfriend. He gave me a subtle smile and glanced at my body.

“Okay, sweetie,” he replied smoothly running his hand through his hair.

As soon as I got to the washroom, following the signs and trying hard not to fall in those fuckin’ heels, I saw Alexios. His green eyes penetrated into mine absolute anger. He had his leg up against one wall and waited for me to approach him. I practically fell into him, skipping over my own two feet and stumbling.

“I see, you have a new boyfriend,” Alexios said, holding out his hand to stop me from falling and not budging.

“It’s a date. He’s not my boyfriend.”

“Do you usually make out on your first date?” his eyes darkened ever so slowly and scared me slightly.

“What do you care? You took off and left me to fend for myself with your lies and sad puppy eyes.” Shit, this wasn’t what I was supposed to say and it sounded like a an immature rhyme. “Look, Alexios,” I leaned into him, “I still care for you.” I looked around. “Could you meet me tomorrow night?”

He grabbed both my arms and stood tall in front of me. “Why?”

I looked around nervously, pretending to be worried, “If Tommy sees you, he’ll kill you…” I was losing him. “I love you.” I figured that would get his attention.

“Where do you want to meet?” he asked coldly eyeing me closely.

“Starbucks. Seven p.m. tomorrow.” Before I could get a reply he was gone.

Fuckin’ vampires and their disappearing act.

Alexios & Elysia # 15

 

15.

“What do you want me to do?”

Tommy’s eyes lingered on my lips a little too long. “I think you need to go to the ballet,” he said out of nowhere.

“The ballet? Are you serious?”

“I bet you’ve never been,” he smiled.

“Why do you say that?” How the fuck does he know I’ve never been…shit, the mind reading again. “Stop reading my mind!”

“I’m not. I just figured you never had anyone take you. I’m sure vampire shithead never took you,” and Tommy rolled his eyes.

“I don’t need anyone to take me to the ballet. I’m a capable woman. I just never had the chance to go,” I replied, hating my answer instantly as I noticed the smirk on his face and  his blue eyes twinkling like a mischevious child.

“It’s a great place to wear a dress,” Tommy said jokingly.

“You’re a real comedian! So what do you want me to do as a spy?” I asked changing the subject and getting back to the point.

“I just told you what we’re doing. We’re going to the Kirov Ballet. The Russians are the best,” he added.

“But why there?”

“Because we are going to make the hellhound jealous.” He just called Alexios a hellhound. Although it was offensive I wanted to crack up.

“And then?” I quickly asked nervously playing with the ends of my hair.

“He’ll show up and I’ll kill him,” he plainly said looking at me as if I was lost. “You see, bella, if Alexios sees me with you, and this is where your acting skills come in as a spy, he’ll get angry and act irrational, as vampires are known to do. As long as you pretend to be interested in me.” Tommy looked at my attire and added, “I’m sure you can muster up some sex appeal, actualy, the way you are playing with your hair right now is a perfect example of what I want him to see.” He gazed intently at me, “you know exactly how to get a guy hot and bothered.”

I stopped twirling my hair. Part of me wanted to run out of that restaurant and his hair-brained schemes, part of me wanted to continue twirling my strands of hair.

“You-”

“Wait, don’t tell me to go fuck myself again.”

“You have some nerve, you know that? Now, when are we going?”

“Tomorrow night.”

“You already bought the tickets?”

“I love the ballet.”

“How do you know I was going to go with you?”

“I didn’t,” he looked at the waitress and waved her over.She was there within seconds.

“Two more,” he said, pointing to the empty wine. She looked at him like she wanted to jump him right there and then in front of me.

“Yes, right away,” she said hurrying off.

“I think she likes you,” I laughed.

“The only girl I have to make like me, is you, at least for pretend, that is,” and smiled at me. “He’ll be watching…and we have to pretend to be into each other.” He laid his hands on the table. “Don’t you just love the word pretend? It gives me a pang of excitement.” The waitress arrived and heard his last word and gave me a dirty look.

“Will there be anything else?” she flirted with Tommy.

“No, thanks,” he replied staring at me.

“So, Ellie, are you ready for your closeup?

I wasnt’ ready for anything. The wine made me slightly dizzy and Tommy’s eyes penetrating into mine left my belly all tingly. I didn’t like this feeling. Not one little bit.

He smiled. “You’ll be fine.”

We finished the wine quickly and we went over tomorrow night’s events. We left the restaurant and got into his car. We drove in silence. I tried to block off any thoughts.

“I told you that I won’t read your mind…and I haven’t . I’m a man of my word, Ellie.”

He stopped in front of my house. “Pick you up at seven p.m. sharp tomorrow,” he said and got out of his car and came around to open my door.

“You’re quite a gentleman,” I remarked, gtting out of the car and standing two inches away from him. I felt it immediately. Electricity coarsed through my veins. I stepped back and said a quick bye.

“Don’t forget to wear a dress,” he called out to me as my weak legs carried me to my front steps. I didn’t look back.

Shit, I needed back up.

Alexios & Elysia #14

 

14.

“Why didn’t Alexios kill you?” I asked.

“I think he likes the game. He said to me, ‘I could easily kill you.’ I said, ‘ Then why don’t you?’ he replied, ‘Then what would be the point of your existence?'”

“This is hard to believe…we are talking about the same guy..” I stammered. My head was spinning.

“The one and only,” Tommy smirked. “Alexios wants to have a reputation as the one who got away. If he had killed me then I wouldn’t go around saying how bad ass he is. Honestly, he’s a sick motherfucker.”

“He really played me, then?”

“Unfortunately, Ellie, you were played, you were hoodwinked.”

“Hoodwinked?”

“For want of a better word…fooled,” Tommy smiled. “We were both made fools.”

“So I guess we have something in common,” I said exasperated.

“That’s why you must help me catch him. Please, Ellie, can you be a spy for me?” his eyes pierced into mine. At the mention of my name on his lips I got fucked up…he looked like a sad puppy dog, then suddenly his face changed to a serious look.

“Spy?” I needed to know exactly what this entailed.

“Yeah, pretend you still care for him and entrap him and I’ll move in for the kill,” Tommy’s eyes gleamed something scary.

“I don’t know. I don’t have some kind of on/off switch. I do still have feelings for Alexios.” I looked down and played with my cuticles on my fingers.

“Ellie, do you want him to find another vulnerable victim and repeat what he’s done to you?” I kept my head down and when I looked at him he seemed so pissed. Hold up, did he say vulnerable?

“Vulnerable? How so?” I replied angrily.

“Look, I’ve done my background check, plus, I’ve been following you.” He quickly looked away and then back at me,”You lead a pretty lonely life. You have no real family around and your best friend is married and quite occupied. I think you were a perfect victim. Also, you don’t strike me as the type of girl that sleeps around.” He winked at me.

Now I was fuming and my mind was racing…part of what he had said was true…it’s his attitude that quickened my pulse. And at that particular moment the waitress came with our food.

“Here you go, your fish platters,” and she placed the dishes in front of us, all this gave me a quick minute to compose myself. “Bon apetit,” she said and looked dreamily at Tommy. He completely ignored her and kept on trying to get my attention by staring at me. He was probably trying to read my mind, but I blocked my thoughts instantly.

“I’ll do it,” I said. I will? Where did that come from? I sounded so sure of myself.

The waitress looked at Tommy and gave him a sneaky smile. “Aren’t you lucky?” she flirted with him.

“No, it’s not like that!” I interjected, how can some women be such bitches?

“Oh, I’m sorry,” she smiled. “I was just kidding…” and she left slightly embarassed.

“Are you always such a tight ass?” He said jokingly.

“Are you always such an asshole?” I shot back at him. He laughed out loud.

“Yes, now eat up. Bon apetit, my partner.”

“I’m not your fuckin’ partner.” Partner? He’s got to be kidding.

“We’ll see about that…whatever you want to call me is fine by me.”

“Okay, Mr. Cool Vampire Hunter who can Read Minds and is an Asshole, what’s the next move?”

“So, you think I’m cool?” he smiled taking a bite of his food.

It was beyond my control…my laughter just burst and the waitress gave me a dirty look.

Alexios & Elysia #13

13.

As Tommy pulled the chair out for me, his strong arms slightly touched my arms and I quickly pulled away.

He looked at me, “I don’t have a disease, you know,” and he laughed with a sparkle of something funny in his eyes.

“I know,” I said, but did I really? He could have a sexually transmitted disease for all I knew. I like the feeling of his skin on mine, fuck. This place was seriously tiny. I looked around and counted six other people here.

He was staring at me and then I remembered to stop thinking. “How did you find this place? You haven’t been in Montreal that long.”

“Actually…” he looked around the restaurant, “I was here before Alexios came,” he confessed looking at me intently.

“What?”

“Look, Ellie, I track vampires. That’s what I’m good at. Don’t look at me so shocked.” Tommy grabbed the menu and looked down reading it as if he had to concentrate…like what could this whole in the wall actually offer? Cheeseburger specialties?

“No, they have a real good menu,” he said not looking up. Shit! He read my mind again.

“Would you stop that?”

His head popped up and his eyes darkened.  “I really haven’t done it that often. You don’t know anything and that prick of an ass lover of yours is not revealing much. He likes to leave you hanging, doesn’t he?” He nodded to the waitress to come over. I couldn’t believe how he said such offensive comments and then continued on in the conversation like nothing was wrong.

“I’m sorry for being a bastard, I can’t control it,” he winked at me.

“You better stop reading my mind or I’m leaving.” I got up and then he stood up. “The only way I’ll sit is if you promise me to not do that again. It’s creeping me out.”

“Okay, I promise,” he said.

The waitress looked from me to Tommy confused. “Are you leaving?” she asked in French; her short black skirt revealed long legs and spiked heels. Her tight black t-shirt left nothing to the imagination.

We both sat down and Tommy replied, “No,” his eyes never leaving mine.

“Can I order for you?” he asked me. I nodded my head yes.

“Deux filet de sole avec du riz et deux verres du vin blanc.”

“Oui, merci.”

“Hold on, you speak French?”

“Yes, I speak French, I speak many languages of love,” he said as his bright blue eyes stared right into mine. He made me squirm. I quickly turned around and blocked my thoughts (just in case).

“So, tell me, what is the real story with Alexios?” I had to know everything.

“I’ll tell you what I know, but Ellie, before I start can I ask you a personal question?”

“Sure,” I said hesitatingly.

“Why do you think you were attracted to a vampire?”

I shrug my shoulders, “He treated me like a lady,” I said casually, brushing the hair off my face.

The waitress arrived with our wine and we remained quiet until she poured it. “By the time I found out the truth…I had fallen badly for Alexios.” The waitress looked at me and then at Tommy. I guess she realized we weren’t together. Suddenly, her whole composure changed.

“Would you like anything else?” she looked directly at Tommy. He completely ignored her or pretended to at least. I twirled with my hair…wow, some women can be so obvious.

“No, thank you,” he gave her a quick smile that clearly indicated he was getting annoyed.

As soon as she was out of earshot, he blurted, “So you fell for a fuckin’ blood sucker?”

“I guess so.”

“You’re cute when you play with your hair.”

“Don’t.” I put my hand on the stem of the wine glass.

“Don’t what?”

“Don’t compliment me.”

“You don’t like compliments?” He picked up his wine glass. “Cheers…here’s to no compliments.”

“Alexios?” I said, ignoring his remarks and clinking wine glasses with him.

“Well, Alexios is one of those vampires on my hot list because he has murdered many women, and not just any woman, the ones with certain powers. He lures them in with his looks, in my opinion, though, he is butt ugly. When I look at him, I see all his ugliness.” He took a sip of his wine.

“Go on…” I urged him. I needed to hear it all.

“The woman just before you, seven years ago, was a Polish medium. She knew what he was, but she fell for him anyway. He sucked all her powers dry and left her for dead,” he glanced away, “I was too late and I vowed to myself it wouldn’t happen again.” He looked so angry and hurt. “I don’t know what lies he told you…of how much he loves you and blah blah bullshit…but I saw him. I fuckin’ saw him do it.”

“You did?” I felt sick.

“I almost had him, too, but his friend Freddy, who is also on my list…trapped me.” He waited for a reaction from me.

“How did he trap you?”

“In a fuckin’ net. I couldn’t escape.” He took a swig of his wine and finished his drink. His eyes were burning with rage now. “Is that enough for you?” I knew there was more.

“What else, Tommy?”

“He made me watch.”

Alexios & Elysia # 11

#11

“He killed people?”

“What do you think? He was a vampire that never killed people? You have to wake up and smell the coffee, my dear. Your great-grandmother, Elizabeth, had a gift and  you have one too. You see, you are exactly like her, except you’ve been blocked.”

“Blocked?”

He drank from his beer and glanced around the bar. “This place is a real dive. I have to show you around. Your city has some cool bars and you choose this one?”

“I like the music.”

“That’s the only thing it’s got going for it,” Tommy looked back at me. “Yes, where was I? Blocked…and try to take a lucky guess, who has blocked you?”

“Don’t tell me, Alexios!”

He put his hands together and clapped, “Ladies and gents we’ve got a winner!” he said his blue eyes smiling at me as if he was a comedian.

“What’s wrong with  you? Is everything a joke to you?” I said angrily.

“Is everything so serious to you? You have to loosen up, Ellie, do you mind if I call you Ellie?”

No one has ever called me Ellie before, he had my head spinning with all his information. His eyes widened and he smirked. Man, his good looks threw me off. I played with my hair nervously.

“Are my looks distracting you, Ellie?”

“You are really obnoxious, Tommy. Who said anything about your looks?”

“I see you like my name,” he laughed.

“I never said that!” Shit I forgot he read minds. Block out everything, I said to myself.

“Ellie, you are quite a spitfire” he took a sip of his beer, and finished it off. He winked at the barmaid and gestured for another two. “Drink up,” he said to me.

I took a few sips trying not to think of anything then I asked him, “How could Alexios block my gift?”

“Alexios was on a mission when he met you. It wasn’t an accident. He was acting and playing a game with you because only a vampire’s presence could make Elizabeth’s spirit guide impenetrable.”

“How about when he left for all those years?”

“Didn’t he send you something? His words and scent have a magical spell around you. It is as if he is surrounding you. He left because he was head over heels for you. No longer valuable. A love-sick puppy,” Tommy rolled his eyes and gestured with his index finger to gag. “He was told to keep on sending you words, your lovely love letters you cherish so, you have to fuckin’ burn them. Stop reading them on the bus. He did this so your bond could not disconnect, and your gift be revealed to you.”

“This sounds absurd. Wait up, how do you know I’ve read his letters on the bus? You’ve been following me?”

“Ever since you’ve been wearing the bracelet I gave you, are you thinking about Alexios as much?” He ignored my question with another question. He was a fast-talker.

“Come to think of it, no.”

“You see, the connection is starting to wear off, thankfully,” he looked at my shoes out of nowhere and up my body to my face. I felt self-conscious and moved in my seat slightly. Everything Tommy said was insane, but somehow made sense. “You really should try to dress up. I’m sure you would look amazing in a dress. Why do you cover your body?”

“That’s none of your business! How I dress or what I wear shouldn’t concern you!”

“Ah, my sweet Ellie, that’s where you are wrong. I am here to catch that lying Casanova of a boyfriend you have, and you are my bait.”

I stood up and looked for Dima. She caught my look and got up. I nudged my head to her toward the exit door, shaken up. “Tommy, go fuck yourself!”

His jaw dropped and immediately his blue eyes twinkled. He stood up and hovered over me, he curtsied like I was some kind of duchess and said, “I had a lovely time talking to you, the pleasure was all mine, obviously, and now I’ll take my leave and go fuck myself, but just so you could know, I really think a dress would compliment you, but you look beautiful in anything you wear,” and he walked away before I got a chance to. I wanted to walk out on him!

He followed me? Alexios was on a mission? I had a gift? What the fuck?

Dima rushed over to me, “What was all that about?”

I looked at my friend Dima and felt my knees go weak, my head dizzy and then blackness.

I hit the hard floor to the tune of Depeche Mode’s, World in my Eyes.