The further you push me away
the closer I get to myself,
the new year has me spinning
in metaphors
sleepless nights and writing storms
I dreamt of poetry in all its deathly colours
you spoke to me from afar
it was barely a whisper
but I could read lips when I sleep
No way back
you said.
The sea so vast
and there I am at the shore
scared of the deep end
and you said,
you can do it
I’m watching you, don’t worry
I’ll be here for you.
True to your words
you kept me safe.
then you disappear like the dead
and there’s no way back
to the start
when
time goes forward.
You can sing me a song
write me a book
pay my bills
create art out of nothing
find fault with my cooking
love the artist in me
but perfection is an ideal
I’m not a statue
stop pretending
I am.
I love how the ocean feels
against my skin
it reminds me
of how we placed our
feet in the water
the first time we met.
