Where are you?
I know I have to act a certain way
the good wife, friend, mother,
daughter. I remember when I spoke up
and ran away to forget who I was.
Bleeding is an external vision
all the internal gods are turning away
misdiagnosing me with mental disorders
I
I am merely showing more of my 49 years
it gets hard to deliver packages
of love when everyone dissects your words
clothes
shoes
handbags
food
love
why are you running
Well it’s quite a miracle I am still alive
after all my accidents
why are you not running.
I wish I was better at human contact
conversation
I wish I was comfortable in my skin
but I never had three wishes.
My problem is I overestimate people
think we are all the same one love
one tribe
when we are so alienated.
I would rather stay home
write, live in the world
of words
I am too soft .
You can’t convert gays
it can’t be done,
no amount of articles on the internet
can convince me
I see too many rainbows
to understand dogmas.
Some days it is harder to be normal
other days it’s another blank bullet.
I walked out of the restaurant. It wasn’t the first time either.
The last time I did that Greg got me so mad.
Now, my rule is,
If I’m hurt, I have to look out for myself. I may just be too fragile.
I crack more than others do
I’m made this way.
Sorry, but I can’t be who I was.
I’m not going back.
This is so powerful, Chrissy. Well done my dear! Cher xo
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Thank you for saying! It came out quick. 🙏❤️🖤
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And that is sometimes how it goes, isn’t it, Chrissy? At times it is almost as if we are taking dictation, if you know what I mean. Thank you for sharing this poignant work. ❤ ❤ xo
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Well, I can only be grateful you read it and connected to my words. As a poet, this is all I wish for. ❤️🙏❤️
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Ah, bless. Mission accomplished, my dear! That’s why I love your writing!! xoxo
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Tysm! Have a wonderful evening 💕
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I love this, C. Your strength is always felt. xoxo
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Thank you, Monique. Love you too💖💞💋
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Superb poetry. There are so many words that speak to me like the bubble in our drinks. Fabulous.
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So glad you do!! Grateful xx
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beautiful…emotionally explosive!
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Thank you!!! Love when you visit 🙂
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