Live my life

I want to be me but you keep on repeating

how my world is not yours. I want to be  you

but you keep on explaining how hard

that could be, what with my wings

and my brains in the sky.

I want to be someone else

just for a day

these blues in me

keep singing.

I bust out once in awhile

and go to the hotel

and stare at the window

and wonder what happened to us.

It’s three o’clock in the morning

and you’re actually sleeping

through my existential crisis.

Again? yes, again and again

I knew you could never handle me.

Why do people who say

“I love you” want you to change

in ways that are not in your nature?

I say “I love you” and can define why.

I love the flaws and imperfections.

I see the world in an absurd way

in a theatre with the playwrights

who made it so. Ionesco weeps

with me too. We all discuss the marvels

of how hating someone

is still loving someone.

I don’t know how you came

to use sex and art as your bullets.

I caught them in my mouth and with my pen

and looked at you to see the love in your eyes

but it wasn’t there.

I still love you though.

I know I don’t deserve it.

I’m wicked now.

A human weeping willow tree,

churning poems for no money.

If only we could be rich

off of words.

If only you cared for me

more than what you claim.

Loving me is difficult I know.

I thought you would smash all the pictures

along my wall

but you only added your photo there

and now I stare at emptiness.

I embrace cupid

and this horrible frightening love.

 

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15 comments

  1. Pingback: Live My Life – The Militant Negro™
  2. Looking for the Light Blog · May 31, 2017

    Reblogged this on Looking For The Light Blog and commented:
    Loved tune, first time addicted. Goes perfect with last nights post. Please come by, I would love the names of others bands, in America I get saddled with what I know. I’m thirsty for new, different just not nasty rap. Hope to receive a comment back. Be well my friend. Xx M

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    • Chrissy · May 31, 2017

      Hi, thank you for the reblog. Actually, Metric is from Canada. I’m not American. If you like Metric, check out The Kills, Dead Weather, Jack White, Arcade Fire, The Airborne Toxic Event, to name a few of the bands that I like with that kind of edgy indie sound. Thanks for the comment xx

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  3. Lively Life · June 1, 2017

    incredible.

    Liked by 2 people

  4. secretfirstdraft · June 4, 2017

    Reblogged this on Secret First Draft: Member of the Sudden Denouement Literary Collective and commented:
    Christina Strigas/You can’t break up with a soul mate

    Liked by 1 person

    • Chrissy · June 4, 2017

      Thank you for sharing ❤

      Like

    • Chrissy · June 10, 2017

      love being part of your writing team, looking forward to it…

      Like

  5. Biko · June 17, 2017

    This is beautiful. 😍

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