img_3550No, not the song

but my mind

when it alters in perception

of what’s real and surreal.

I do not know what to say

to you…

was I what you imagined?

better? worse?

shall you compare me

to every other woman before

and after? or not even close.

I kissed a guy in 1991

at some club in the middle

of a song and it was magical.

Vowed I wouldn’t do it again

and it was only on our

fourth date I gave myself

to you. A present.

And even if you never

think of me again

and if the one that broke

your heart

broke everything else

I know that what we found

in a few hours

was enough for me.

I do not have to

keep on telling you

that my thoughts

trail back to you.

even if you have moved on.

even if life has to be that way.

I always hold people so close

sometimes I suffocate them.

Trust me, you’ll feel it too

you will tell me

to leave. That is just

what distance and time does.

I cry like a baby

over all the things

we cannot have.

I cry at death, the news,

tv shows, movies,


the injustice of it all.

So many times I reach out

only to fall

flat on my face

but I still look good

and I can still turn a few heads

even flattery

gets you somewhere

I could be vain



a finalist

but I hate being

the one



I prepare myself

for it.

I can plan a party

with so much gusto

and flair

but I cannot

plan for

the day you kiss my lips


This is a poem

about the future

and even if you do not believe

in the future

you cannot avoid it.

It’s coming for you


for all of Us.




  1. Chrissy · April 13, 2017

    Reblogged this on Christina Strigas.


  2. Mr. Militant Negro · April 14, 2017

    Reblogged this on The Militant Negro™.

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