No Way Back (day 2)

The further you push me away

the closer I get to myself,

the new year has me spinning

in metaphors

sleepless nights and writing storms

I dreamt of poetry in all its deathly colours

you spoke to me from afar

it was barely a whisper

but I could read lips when I sleep

No way back

you said.

The sea so vast

and there I am at the shore

scared of the deep end

and you said,

you can do it

I’m watching you, don’t worry

I’ll be here for you.
True to your words

you kept me safe.

then  you disappear like the dead

and there’s no way back

to the start

when

time goes forward.

You can sing me a song

write me a book

pay my bills

create art out of nothing

find fault with my cooking

love the artist in me

but perfection is an ideal

I’m not a statue

stop pretending

I am.

I love how the ocean feels

against my skin

it reminds me

of how we placed our

feet in the water

the first time we met.