Never

I have one word answers

to statements

that do not get me

trapped under the snow

or hitting trees

speeding down slopes.

I am not even close

to being

who you think I am.

Over a coffee,

I aim to not impress you

with my silent eyes.

Over a drink,

I aim to not impress you

over my drunken innuendos

and real batty lashes.

I never

ever

get a grip

on reality

for if I do,

I will let it control me

in ways that anxiety does.

I would rather live in my head

be in control

half of the time,

accumulate speeding tickets

burn notebooks

and still

you would not be impressed

by my recklessness,

or my playlist

or my grocery list

for you care only

about the softness of my skin,

how I never age,

so, I do suppose,

in that

I could finally impress you

the most.

How you want to seduce

me with your lies,

your brilliant skies,

your magnetic eyes,

all under poetic disguise.

My dad whispered how he loved me

in my dream last night .

You care not for my poetry

or my dark eyeliner

all you care for

is my reality

to be yours

naked

under strange sheets.

I prefer the smell of fabric softener.

My dad said the words

I longed to hear.Β 

Even in death he knows whatΒ 

I need to hear.Β 

And still I can never be yours.

 

 

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35 comments

  1. Erika Kind · December 21, 2015

    Oh, Chrissy…. thought provoking!

    Liked by 1 person

    • Chrissy · December 21, 2015

      Thanks Eric, I like to make you think! It’s good for the brain cells. xx lol

      Liked by 1 person

      • Erika Kind · December 21, 2015

        Haha…. you are definitely right… lol!!! It is a great piece, Chrissy!

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      • Chrissy · December 21, 2015

        You’re so sweet and KIND thank you.xx

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      • Erika Kind · December 21, 2015

        Awh… love that! Thank you 😘😘

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  2. Nimmi · December 21, 2015

    Great!! πŸ™‚

    Liked by 1 person

  3. EDC Writing · December 21, 2015

    This you at your very best …methinks

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Eric · December 21, 2015

    Wow, there is so much here. I needed to stand back and read it twice. πŸ˜‰ Love this, Poetess! You are so amazing. ❀

    Liked by 1 person

  5. Leslie Meeks · December 21, 2015

    Amazing writing Christina.

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  6. Dustin · December 21, 2015

    Your words are beautiful and they never cease to astound me with their vivid images and thought-provoking nature. I have missed your blog!

    Liked by 1 person

  7. thelonelyauthorblog · December 21, 2015

    Damn, that was so freaking good. You have a brilliant writing style that is only YOU. By the way, I hope I had something to do with that line about your grocery list…lol. This was classic Christina Strigas. Fuck, everyone should be forced to bow before reading your work.

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    • Chrissy · December 22, 2015

      Good morning Andrew, thank you so much, reading that as my first comment fills my heart with lots of joy! Woke up fucked up so that helps. You may have popped up unconsciously lol! So, not sure if you know but my publishing company 451 Press is going to publish my chapbook very soon. It’s in the process of getting published, hopefully Christmas. Waiting on that email, I will let everyone on wordpress know as well! Can’t catch up with this social media omg, it’s time consuming! Thanks so much. I have to actually start my shopping today. Have a great day!

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      • thelonelyauthorblog · December 22, 2015

        GM So, happy to be your first comment of the day. Yes, I saw the chapbook post. Already commented there. Good luck with the LAST MINUTE shopping. Hold onto to your purse, this is pocket picking season. Be safe. Keep us posted on your chapbook. Have a great day.

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      • Chrissy · December 22, 2015

        A million thanks for your blessings! I seriously have to get on that shopping!

        Liked by 1 person

      • thelonelyauthorblog · December 22, 2015

        Good luck

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    • Chrissy · December 22, 2015

      I’m humbled. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. x

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  9. ofglassandbooks · December 22, 2015

    Fabulous!
    Of Glass and Books

    Liked by 2 people

  10. DW · December 25, 2015

    Never stop writing

    Liked by 1 person

  11. Chrissy · December 26, 2015

    Reblogged this on Christina Strigas.

    Like

  12. Akhiz · December 26, 2015

    Beautiful

    Liked by 1 person

  13. Souldiergirl · January 8, 2016

    I love this one. I will never ever get a grip on reality- no, I won’t either or I wouldn’t be here getting lost in your magic xxx

    Liked by 1 person

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