I’m not that smart

It’s raining in the light today

and soon the dark

will control my mind

but reading your poem

exclusively for me

made my heart swell

felt like a tiny pebble

in this great ocean

we drown or swim in

or float

ordering our morning coffee

smiling at the same waitress.

And there you go again

asking me the same

question years later

hoping for a different reply

but I’m not that smart

leave me cry

over my broken ripped out heart

insult me again

hate me

for I love that you’ll be so close

and in the spur of the moment

I’m there

don’t ask me to think about

it

because in seven minutes

I’ll regret my no

as your plane lands

perhaps mine already left.

I ordered my afternoon coffee

I’ll be discussing how education

has failed the young

a panel of experts

will point me out

as the woman whose life

changed in November

when a car crashed

and broken glass

stopped her

from replying

and living

her life.

I know nothing

I wish I was smarter

but you have

all the power.

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23 comments

  1. Eric Syrdal · October 29, 2015

    I love this…and you…and you are brilliant…and this poem is beautiful…and I’m just going to go sit over here for a while. ❤

    Liked by 3 people

  2. Mr Modigliani · October 29, 2015

    There is so much autobiographical content in this, but mostly I felt its emotion. If I am reading correctly, I hope you enjoy his visit

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Nimmi · October 29, 2015

    Lovely!! 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Sydney Carton · October 29, 2015

    Interesting. Sounds like you have been down this road before. Maybe a new destination is in order. x

    Liked by 1 person

  5. justagirllost2 · October 29, 2015

    So beautiful, C ❤️

    Liked by 1 person

  6. kutukamus · October 30, 2015

    Sometimes mind
    Does make things harder
    For the heart 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  7. My Silly World · October 30, 2015

    nice poem

    Liked by 1 person

  8. Souldiergirl · October 31, 2015

    Gah!! You grab my heart and twirl it around- you are so deep and real and gorgeous. I love this piece.

    Liked by 1 person

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